The larger and further from where I think I should be, the less I feel like my body is my own. I look down at myself and think "what happened when did...." Its like it isn't me, like I don't understand how I look like this. I mean really I looked in the window today, and I swear I look like I'm about 6 months pregnant. I know I'm not, but looking at me from the outside, I would have guessed I was. That really bothers me. I sometimes wonder how I got here.
I'll be fine. I'm mostly just tired, hormonal and bloated.
In good news, I did a good long walk at lunch today.
I can change this, it isn't too late. Height 5'0" Weight 171 Waist 41" hips 43" bicep 12 3\4 Thigh 22" chest 45" I'll update weight weekly, the rest monthly.